Bibled and studied.. (what the hell is this title talking about..?!)

Hi guys, If you want to know, today is October 4, 2006..I don't know, but the last 4 hours of my life isn't very "crappy"... (FINALLY!) I attended a bible study conducted by faithful students.. This day is a really unforgettable experience for me.. It all started when we prayed the rosary at noon.. I gave it all on that prayer.. But the thought of something gets in my way.. (Its a secret..)Then, I kept my promise to Michelle that I will accompany her to her bible study today.. At first, I want to postpone it again.. But on second thought, why not? We had few homeworks (that's why I had the time to blog).. And I think I won't cross my 6pm curfew...The topic is all about acceptance of salvation that God offers us.. What I remembered, its from the book of Matthew Chapter 22.. Something like that.. But since I'm new on the group, I tend to listen first to what will they say... They said their 100% sure they will go to heaven.. Honestly, I had doubts about that.. But then, God offers me a chance to live in peace with him.. why refuse, right..? (Hey! I haven't typed this fast in my whole life..!)On closing, our SSG president, Paul, led a prayer.. When he "prayed", I don't really appreciate what he says.. Because there is a saying, before you teach someone, you have to become one.. And I remembered an incident where I saw the apparently "yin" side of Paul..
I was going home back then when I heard someone say something.. then Paul reacted.. I don't remember exactly what he said, but the look on the face of that someone, it tattooed on my mind.. A look of self-degrade.. its like I can feel his/her (I think she a girl) heart break.. Hey, don't get me wrong.. Its not like Paul busted her..! Anyway.. For me, Paul delivered the prayer very well.. But I can't seem to forget that incident.. That makes me want to say.. "This is not a speech and drama class..OK?"
Anyway, when I got home, I felt very relieved.. To know that I will have the opportunity to share my problem.. OK, if you want to know, here's my problem..
=========> I'm a midcard perfectionist.. (Wait.. commercial.. I just passed by my yayas and they're shouting like hell because Kit=Camille Prats just saw the love of her life, Teng=Richard Gutierrez transform to Captain Barbell..! OK... back to the topic..) Hmmm.. I think I'm gonna cut this topic short.. Because, I plan to share my dilemma next Wednesday... So.. If you want to know, better attend the bible study.. (Its life-changing..! Promise!)
Goodbye and God Bless